Dream Baby Dream

When I first got separated and moved out of the house, I couldn't sleep.  It takes a while learning how to sleep by yourself again.  So dreaming obviously wasn't happening as I wasn't getting enough sleep to actually dream.

Now that some time has passed (I'm still not used to sleeping by myself btw), I am dreaming again.  I wish I wasn't though.  A lot of my dreams are still of L and the life I used to have that someone else is living.

I heard last night that L and her boyfriend had a "family" night out with the kids to go see High School Musical 3 last night.  Hard stuff to take, and there's not a damn thing I can do about it.

Am I ever going to come to terms with this?  I don't know.  So far there is no light at the end of the tunnel.

And all I have are my dreams....I wish I could go back to not sleeping.

See you all further on up down the road.

JC